Renegading girls

hey deva,

Whenever i just sit and think about you and me,the only thing that strikes me is that whats so
special between you and me,which makes me think of you so much?In ordinary circumstances i would have never
thought of you this much,but there do come moments when i just cannot do without you.
There do come moments when somehow or the other you make me think of you.i feel as if
the thought process itself has been controlled by you.To be precise I would say that
you decide what i should think and what action should i take on that.I feel as though i am a small kid,
a kid who has been just admitted to the school,and is very lost ,confused,bewildered,haywire,almost into tears
(That feeling when the tears actually come to the throat,and at any moment would squirt out).
I feel as though i am on waves, and trust me these waves are fabulous feeling,it gives me the pleasure of my life.


khelata faag paraspar heell meell shobha varnani najayi....kaisee yeh dhooom machayi...brij mei holi rachayi....kaisee yeh dhoom machayi
aaj khelo shaam sang holi.....pichkari rang sang bharike....

I wish i can play with you.play wiht you as though you were my sakhaa...
i wish it could be as entwining as selfless friendship.Ohhhh i just go ga ga over you yaar...just be like this .

Sant Kabir did work easy for me,thats what i feel.I am totally drenched in the color of you.I so very love it,
i am absolutely greatfull to that day when i first felt that there is in the world al omnisuperior fellow
who has his prowess with everyone as he has it with himself.The best way to put it into words is to just infact leave it there
and enjoy it.But this stupid mind wants everything in black and white.But its true not everything can be put into words,
yet i have made an attempt here.

Do these thoughts have any meaning at all but.Or they are just my mindplays.Or just simple dreams of mine.
But again i feel that even my thoughts are yours,what i feel is being made to feel by you,so then this also should be felt by me
as a result of your decision.I am absolutely very haapy when i feel that you are there by my side,
in bad times and in good time,Ohhh why so,lets say you are just there with me always.Thats all !

This is a big big circle which seems to be completing here,I frankly cannot keep it in words,but
i somehow have a very strong hunch that you have something stored in for me,

The waves are not felt in the depths of the sea,nor are they felt in deep sea.
Its the coast that i feel makes the waves felt.the riveulet flows amidst small rocks,and tree barks.
The pebbles beneath just slowly roll and make a sweet clanking sound .This sound is so very pleasant.The small waves,
or turbulences created by these pebbles originate and vanish into each other as though they never had existed separately
yet every other moment they come up and remind me of their presence.They teach me that,to rise above all and then again
getting engulfed in his arms is the sole reason of the creation of the wave itself.Its futile of the wave to think that it is an entity.